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Walking helps—oh! Before I get into it, this is a continuation of my thoughts on dopamine and haloperidol.

Walking does help, but I’m pretty sure it’s the sunlight that’s doing it.

Taking the recommended L-Tyrosine (on the bottle = 6 capsules), DL-Phenylalanine (1 capsule), B6 (2 capsules) + Rhodiola (not sure why everyone capitalizes the r) doesn’t have the desired effect.

I took the above one week after my last dose of Rhodiola.

For some reason, the hit I get from Rhodiola gets weaker every time I take it.

I wish listening to Studio “Syrup Comfiture” would grant me relief. I wish my psychiatrist were studied enough to tell me why I’m flirting with the answer, but yet still, stands so far away and obscured.

Except for that one, fucking psychiatrists are all the same, but he’s retired now, so good luck with that. I feel like I could’ve definitely relied on him to give me some learned suggestions.

EDIT: It seems rhodiola (rosea root extract) isn’t a hopeless avenue to explore!

It had been on the agenda to wait some days before taking it again to see if I could get it to reproduce the effect it had in the recent past.

Some success has been found by waiting five days between doses.

Now, it’s just a matter of figuring out what extra supplementing my brain needs to make it truly count on this one day! (At least, that’s how I theorize this’ll work out.)
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So, haliperidone and paliperidone interfere with the dopamine receptors in the brain, but there’s more to the effect than simply making one feel sleepy.

I can attest that, while exercise does make that feeling of contentedness associated with dopamine, there is something else going on, because even though I’ll feel like playing a game (Skyrim or Borderlands) on my computer, the feeling that I actually can game out is, insofar as I can manage, out of reach.

And I have tried to game out while feeling this way! I last (maybe) five minutes before I lose all motivation and interest to continue.

So, what the fuck is it that I have to do, so that I can pass the time enjoying myself, instead of laying in bed tired but awake?

I have done a little reading.

Apparently, the brain uses DL-phenylalanine and tyrosine together to create stuff, and then, that stuff ends up as dopamine, yea?

Iron and B6 are also needed to get the process going… apparently…

But here’s the roadblock: Rhodiola rosea extract will make my brain feel normal one time (in my experience)!

Why is that?

Diminishing returns until the fourth day where there is no happy relief (allowing me to game out for, at least, three hours).

And I need that happy relief!

I need it!

I don’t even know who I can take these ponderings to.

It’s very frustrating… hard… and let’s just say being out of bed for ~2 hours a day on average is not a life I want to lead.

How many of you are hip-hip-hoorahing me for finally taking some time to cure this sad, sorry state I am in?

This is all so very interesting.

TL;DR: Get a tea with ginseng and a ginseng extract tincture.

You can use the tea as intended, though be aware that it’ll be more effective cold, so you can put it in the freezer and grab it as needed. The tincture is good for two drops in with your laundry. No need for any special treatment; just put it on a rag.

Some months ago, I stopped needing to use it altogether; however—and of course, you likely will never need to go to such lengths, but ginseng does indeed have muscle strengthening qualities.

While I say ‘strengthening’, I am unsure as to what word would be better suited there because strengthening implies it’ll help in building muscle.

I do NOT know much, yet I do know if it weren’t for ginseng, I’d have been begging those around me to put me out of my misery, for the pain was unbearable!

So, if you run into a situation where your back is injured and is minute-by-minute falling apart, ginseng will indeed come in handy sometime down the road!

In my case, it took five years for the injury to progress to the point where ginseng was necessary.

Moving along!

Now, the muscle in my neck and back and such feels much different. Even when I have to scratch my torso, the sensation of the scratching feels much different.

Simply, it’s as though the muscle has lost much tensile versatility (as my neck will hurt sharply quickly if I’m not careful about how I turn it. And I know my memory is bad, but I know this wasn’t the case before. My neck used to have much more give to it.

Maybe all this sounds so far-fetched, but you—yes, YOU— will never have to worry about your back muscle losing its stability and succumbing to a constant state of collapse.

It’s just not in the cards for you!

Rejoice at the thought!

申し訳ありませんが、私は日本語をあまり知らないので、この文書の信頼性を検証することはできませんが、代理店が最善を尽くしたと信じています。

Sorry, I do not know a great deal of Japanese, so I cannot verify the integrity of this document, but I have faith that the agency did their best!

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I’d learned about cranberry juice recently in treating nicotine withdrawal.

Still, it’s bonkers how easy it is to just keep smoking when you have a (hopefully) temporarily gimped up foot.

Today, I was able to go for a good walk, and for some reason, the left foot, there, fixed itself temporarily.

Why have you not healed in three weeks, foot?

So, I’ve hit a roadblock, and then, a small breakthrough with my vocal exercises (for increased VE production), so I’ve been trying to remind myself who I am: to beat the moneysink that smoking is.

I know I’ll have to resort to nicotine-cessation, and so, I’m planning to make a same-day appointment with my doctor: to get some pills, i.e., cranberry juice is expensive, and I don’t have the money to sustain this way of life with the moneysink that buying litres and litres of cranberry juice is.

Bupropion is on the menu!