Over the course of the past however much time, I’ve been trying my best to think of things I thought about way back when. All of this has happened some time ago. Still, I’ll try to go over them in a sort of as-they-come-to-me way; and they’ll be described as best I can. And that’s about all I can do….
（１）I mentioned some behavior of my voice in the weeks leading up to my breakthrough. ‘Chest rumbling’ is one such thing. I am uncertain if what I was experiencing was anything like the rumbling another person feels when singing (it was my first experience with such a sensation). All I know is that I felt it. Supposing you’re experiencing this sensation while performing the exercises I’ve written about, perhaps that is an indicator of having met one or more of the criteria needed to greatly accelerate voice growth in ‘short spurts’….
They are short spurts, after all. I get the feeling great amounts cannot be covered in stride. Why? Because of the behavior of the waves of growth. I get the feeling there’ll be some rinsing and repeating amongst your trying for success. I should like to point out: Specifically, this was happening during long single note humming roughly about my natural speaking pitch at the time. And while I’d like to move on to the next point, I believe something begs to be brought up once more. I underline that I was NOT exerting such great force as to yell or anything of that nature. There were concentrated bursts of utterance (with a little bit of confident humming to mix things up). The utterances were all aiming to be as exact as the last fired off – in quick succession in many instances. You could say it was an exercise in perfectionism. ‘Make each feel exactly the same as the last’. Repeat this line to yourself, for that is the great goal and the great mystery – that each following the last can be different. If that isn’t possible, then your voice is not strong enough. Of note: Waiting a modest time between utterances… apparent exactness could be both felt and, yes, even predicted! Yes, I did find myself falling quite squarely into the role of the perfectionist, both in activity and in thought, which is maybe why I am quite certain it will take a very special person who has significant qualities of patience, diligence, and persistence to see any hint of progress and, finally, truth to any of this. This leads to point two quite naturally.
（２）When the voice is not strong enough, sing and sing lots. Singing is, by far, the quickest way to build voice energy…. Give yourself a year or two to gain voice strength. Then, granted your lineage gave you just enough strength, perhaps that time is all you needed. I know I needed much longer to see some headway. I realize it wasn’t until later on that these revelations came to me, but it’s a feeling I can’t help but have.
（３*）I was dreaming about this following point a few days ago. It is regarding the ‘sweet spot’ that the essence of the voice should be placed in (probably) before ‘skipping’ is possible. (I am, of course, speaking of states of voice energy.) I do recall needing to shift focus ever so slightly when uttering. I do remember feeling as though the diagram that was illustrated in my previous paper was somewhat misleading because it showed the course of the arrow raising somewhat before pointing a little downwards. Truth be told, I am not very smart. This, I believe, was my way of hinting at there being a ledge of some sort (apart from the very real upward force voice energy exhibits at around that point). (Again, this is explained by there being states within the waves of growth. The ledge is the center where focus must be placed.)
So, in theory, you are uttering, but not just uttering straight out at first. You are trying to change the state of the energy first to one that allows for you to feel this ledge, then press out from on top of it there. Why is this such an afterthought that I hadn’t mentioned it in any of the times I’d published articles on this topic? Insecurity, for the most part. Insecurity stemming from the feeling that I didn’t know for certain which directions to guide others in (in application, of course). I only managed to do it once. It was once for a split second, and then I fell into a deep depression after I ‘lost’ my voice. I wasn’t trying to remember or write anything down. I apologize for this all being fairly messy. If there is any truth to this point, you’ll notice it. Just pay attention to the feeling of your voice changing over the course of utterances.
（４）There is no point in which you’ll be pushing out from the gut during these utterances (or perhaps it became so natural to me that I didn’t notice that it all was coming from the gut). I believe it was all purely from the throat, focusing solely on the center of the voice’s root. There’s no way for me to really teach the nitty-gritty of what it was I was doing. Experiment. Don’t rule out anything. The best I can do is leave clues (that may or may not help).
（５）This final item has to do with the placement of stress. During my experimenting, I found it best not to try to hold stress at basically any angle other than centered at the root with no tilt, completely inline with the body. This may sound silly to point out as we learn to speak at a very young age (and it’s all very unconscious and instinctual); however, if you find yourself in the same position as I did, you will raise questions such as: what is the right way to focus while speaking or uttering?; (or) is there a better place to focus on when speaking? The jury was out during my experimenting, and it stressed me out to no end. In fact, I was absolutely convinced pressing down while talking was detrimental to the voice at the time. Point three is clearly to blame for this. I was terrified of losing my voice, and I didn’t have anyone to tell me how to just talk normally. Thus, what came to pass, passed, and we’re indeed here now regretting beliefs and theories and actions founded on ignorance even years later.
Yet, the full depth and scope of the possibilities of ‘true’ experimentation is limited, first, by one’s assumptions, and second, by one’s ignorance. I mean that it was my intent to, essentially, ‘forget’ how to speak… how I use my voice… to test everything imaginable. I, at one point, had everything imaginable pinned down. I placed stress every which way and memorized every response. I had to give it to my sore larynx many times for putting up with me. Now, seeing as how none of this is possible for me any longer (it all relates to the mass of your voice energy), I can’t go ahead and try to learn it all once more. Sorry about that too. You all could have greatly benefitted from some elaboration. (I do remember the tearing sensation just under the belly button, but don’t remember how it was pulled off….) I would like to be able to offer more insight for those that end up stumbling across this…. This’ll have to suffice.
That’s all for now! Best of luck to you all!
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