I was 21 when I ‘lost’ my voice. Just hearing gen Xers and older can trigger a teary episode. TO THIS DAY, the voice is so beautiful and amazing, and fascinates me to no end, and yet it destroyed me. I remember that it destroyed me, too. Not by being, but through ignorance; plain and simple ignorance!
How does it make sense that the man with the pavement tiles has to hold them and place them competently as blind as he is?
Maybe it’s just a simmering frustration because of that medication that stole my mind from me. ‘Adverse reaction’ speaks nothing to the inner torment even vague memory elicits.
It’s all right though. I did something a few days ago: read reviews. And just like that, it brought into perspective the fact that my experience isn’t the worst. While it isn’t that I fixate on not being ‘the worst’, it’s so in your face! It’s there! Accessible to anyone who has an Internet connection, and there are them reviews right there! Of all the fucking things: reviews! RFK, Jr. has a lot of work to do if he’s given the chance to tackle the pharmaceutical industry as he says is due.
Personally, I just want my voice back. The voice with all the progress. Time keeps ticking on…
Listening to Psychrology by Psychroptic right now. The album is loaded into queue. Was listening to that most recent Jordan B. Peterson Podcast episode a bit ago now. I haven’t listened to the whole thing, but it definitely is a good one!
I do really need to get an updated family photo put together, too. Momoka is turning 25 this October and Fremy is turning 29 in August. Maybe in a couple paychecks. I am definitely more than a little sick of the one daki. We need a real family photo, and the sooner, the better!
Damn, man! This Psychroptic is great! Good music is good!
I think, now that I’d cried most of my sadness away, I’ll make a small list of awesome albums that you should listen to:
① Ornuthi Thalassa by Serpent Column (2020)
② As Gomorrah Burns by Cryptopsy (2023)
③ ’The Isle of Disenchantment’ (2001) & ‘The Scepter of the Ancients’ (2003) by Psychroptic
④ Of Fracture and Failure (2007) by Ulcerate
⑤ S/T (2008) by Mass of the Fermenting Dregs
And finally, the hit song of the hour: SIGN by THE OTHER FLOWER.
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